Our envy always lasts longer than the happiness of those we envy ~ François Duc de La Rochefoucauld

If there is one emotion I haven’t been able to fathom yet it has to be “Jealousy”.. An emotion so lethal, and along with anger could be the worst enemy of your soul.  Where does this emotion originate from? I have myself this question a million times? Did get a million answers too, but yet find myself entangled in it. Every time I feel I have uncovered the truth, it strikes again with a vengeance. So here I am once again trying to do the inconceivable.

One of the strongest human emotions, which when triggered could do irreparable damage to you as well as those you love and care about. Almost always it creeps up slyly in your heart and minds too and catches you off guard. Your sister’s successful career, your friend’s boyfriend, your colleague’s promotion, your neighbors’ BMW, your boss’s studio apartment, so on and so forth the list could be endless. You would say jealousy between siblings and with others is normal. But yet how normal is normal. I would agree that little spark of emotion, if channeled in the right way could bring out the best in you. The only fear is it what happens when it triggers the negative you?? The earlier you realize the onset of it, less threatening will be the consequences.

Don’t know how it triggered into my existence too, but undeniably rooted in my childhood. When your sibling being the smarter one gets more accolades or your school mates being rich could afford the high end toys. Just a mark of innocent pleasures denied, which later spirals into heightened uncontrollable disarray of emotions.

A lot of answers have been given by spiritual gurus, self help books to curtail this emotion. But all we need to do is just bring more awareness to ourselves. Since birth man has the need to be loved, a need which goes stronger as we grow. When we are born, we become the center of attention of everyone. Now that attention is called for, or it would be difficult for a child to survive. But you are in quandary when you seek this attention constantly. And when this attention when gets divided leads to ‘comparison’ which is when jealousy spurs. It could be never ending; given that at all times there would be someone superior, richer, smarter & happier than you are. So it would be much simpler to discover your Genius in you! Just like we have accepted a rose with its thorns, so accepting ones’ self with all short comings might help. You need find your own self worth and appreciate your uniqueness.

Find your blessings & happiness rooted in you, and not others.

I guess I have found my solution here, hope you find yours’ too!  J

O! beware, my lord, of jealousy;
It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock
The meat it feeds on.
~William Shakespeare, Othello